Stop for a moment and breathe. Whatever your problem is, it will go away. You’ll smile again. Lately, my dashboard has been flooded with triggering things and I just want to take a moment to tell everyone something, no matter if they read this now or fifty years from now:
You’re beautiful. The curve of your smile, the way you walk, the way your hair moves when you turn your head, the way each and every one of your muscles move together with your body movements… It’s all beautiful, and perfect. The way you are is perfect for you. I don’t care if you’re thick or thin, you are perfect just how you are. Now, if you want to gain/lose a few pounds, that’s fine. Hell, to me, even having an eating disorder is fine. I’ve been there. I was bulimic and anorexic as well. But please, don’t lose yourself in it. Don’t lose yourself and end up killing yourself for what you don’t need. You don’t need to be unhealthy to be beautiful. Tone up and yes, you will WEIGH more, because muscle weighs more than fat, but you’ll be healthy and just as beautiful, this I swear to you. But even that you don’t have to do, because you’re beautiful just the way you are.
Another thing, you are not alone. I know it may seem like you are right now, but I swear to you that you aren’t. Someone cares about you. Have you ever seen the impact on everyone after a suicide? Let me let you in on a secret: No one is going to say they’re glad you’re gone. No one is going to feel relieved. You know what they’ll feel? Agony. Despair. Regret. They will spend days upon days wishing they could go back and change that day, over analyzing every last detail on what they could have done differently to keep you alive until they drive themselves mad. Your family will never be the same, your friends might follow in your footsteps. Stop thinking about yourself for just a second. All of the people around you, even some you don’t talk to or wouldn’t think would be effected, like your teachers or co-workers, are going to be in pain and some might follow in your footsteps. If you kill yourself, you could be the cause of another person taking their life. You could be giving THEM that final push. Please, don’t do that. Instead, reach out and talk to them. And even if you don’t think you can talk to them, talk to me. I’m just a face somewhere in a crowd, just another tumblr addict, but I’m here. I will always be here for you.
Lastly, be careful with that frown. This is going to sound extremely cheesy but someone has already fallen in love with your smile. You may not know who it is, but someone has. And every time you frown, you break their heart. I don’t know you but the loss of a nice smile in the world is breaking mine already. Did you know that psychologists have found that even if you’re in bad mood, you can instantly lift your spirits by forcing yourself to smile? Probably. But what you might not have known is that smiling really can improve your physical health, too. Your body is more relaxed when you smile, which contributes to good health and a stronger immune system. Also, smiling really is contagious, scientists say. In a study conducted in Sweden, people had difficulty frowning when they looked at other subjects who were smiling, and their muscles twitched into smiles all on their own. It can also relieve stress. Your body immediately releases endorphins when you smile, even when you force it. This sudden change in mood will help you feel better and release stress. Oh, and another thing: It’s attractive. A research study conducted by Orbit Complete discovered that 69% of people find women more attractive when they smile than when they are wearing makeup.
With all that said, I’ll stop going on for a moment and end this with one simple promise:
I love you, and it’s not worth it.
Depression Hotline: 1-630-482-9696
Suicide Hotline: 1-800-784-8433
Trevor Project: 1-866-488-7386
Sexuality Support: 1-800-246-7743
Eating Disorders Hotline: 1-847-831-3438
Rape and Sexual Assault: 1-800-656-4673
Grief Support: 1-650-321-5272
Runaway: 1-800-843-5200, 1-800-843-5678, 1-800-621-4000
Exhale: After Abortion Hotline/Pro-Voice: 1-866-4394253
If you ever want to talk: My Tumblr ask is always open.